bbq day..

yesterday i went to back from kampar to go for the hwee ling party at her house.. i been long time didn't go back puchong by bus, dunno how the structure they change.. when i arrived bukit jalil, there was crowded and very traffic jam.. i waited for my sister almost an hour only i get into the car due to the traffic jam...>.< so damn hot..

we started moving to hwee ling house at 7pm and it was traffic jam also... by the time we reached her house, every one is busying burn chicken, hot dogs, corns, potatos and fishes.. we were so paiseh coz so late only reached there and they already burn some for us to eat.. "ah ma" also burn chickens for us.. hehe.. feel so warm.. after finish bbq, we went to her karaoke room to sing k..one of my cousin sing "tian mi mi" for us..and celebrate 6th birthday for him..a jelly cake..

we went back at 10something after mummy help "dai yi" claen the outside floor..^^ a normal bbq day..

Ignoring...

today is the 8am class, I'm so lazy to wake up but have to also.. as usual Lee Shea will fetch us go to uni every Thursday.. after finish the 8am class, we got break time till 1230pm, and we going to meet Ida for the assignment (err.. actually is Lee Shea and Siew Leng wanted to ask, I didn't contribute anything also >.<).. who knows we just find out sau hean group have the same topic with us.. i get shocked and luckily Ida still accept and didn't ask us to change topic.. things happen like that, when the time we, siu groups and Catherine groups sit in an empty room (H109) wait the time pass, they talk about me.. they keep asking whether Leong is my boyfriend or not; is it we couple already but didn't tell out; why we dun couple since we are very close to each other.. all this questions make me very ignoring, feel not nice to hear... it is my problem? cause i so close to him although i know he is still like me? maybe i should get off from him, dun so near with him, then i will be get away from all this questions... no point to explain to them since they dun believe.. i got wrong to close with a guy that's not my boyfriend?

after this, Leong attend for the OD class, i didn't even look at him, when i see him, i will think of what they questioning me!! so i just ignore him! and he dun feel nice when back home, we also talk less to each other... i just dunno y... why he cant try to understand me when he feel i got problem? why he can't just try to find out what happen? he's always no patient to find out whats my problem, when I want to tell that time he already stop asking... why we will quarrel recently for only a small small matter?? I think I should think deeply about it..... sigh....

friendsss..

today i went to pasar malam i saw Catherine, Caferine, Lim and "Hui Voon". when i saw them my heart feel not nice, i though they dun wan to come pasar malam so i just go with my "gor". when i wish to out with them, they will reject me coz they busy with assignment or dun feel like going out, but when they want to "yok" me I'm the one who busy.. recently.. no is very long time d... i didn't out with them, and that we talk less to each other, seldom tell our own life things to each other. dunno why i will feel not nice when they go pasar malam and didn't ask me along.. last time our relationship so good but now is only hi bye friend.. maybe i take them seriously.. really think they are my close friends that can talk secret to each other like last time..

I'm wondering whether my communication got problem o not.. why other peoples can communicate well with each other but me, i only can communicate with people in a short period?? i wish to be like others, can talk joke, can tease each other.. actually what is my problem?? is it i scare of other peoples will mad at me if i say something wrong? or i actually is not that type of person so i can't mix with those peoples??

after pasar malam, gor went to my house to read articles for the MA assignment.. but something happen between us and make the environment inside the room is quite.. gor trying to "tam" me.. but i just mad at him with his childish attitude.. after awhile I don't angry at him and try to talk to him but then after answering what i ask him he tell me he wanted to go back home.. my feeling is like angry, disappointed, sad.. why he just leave when she not tam me back? he just dun understand me.. he think he leave i will feel better but actually it is not..

sometimes he understand me well but sometimes he don't..sometimes he is too care of my feeling and then make more trouble occur.. when i tell something serious tat is a joke he didn't take it as a joke only, but when i tell something that is joke but say it in a serious way he take it seriously.